Sunday, August 2, 2009

"I'm only human..."

"I'm only human, save me...save me from myself.
I'm only human, I'm no superwoman..."

I know, I haven't blogged in forever on here. Sorry. (Don't think anyone really reads them much anyway...) Life lately has just been...there? I have so many things that are going on at the moment, but they're so not important to me at the moment that I just feel a little blah all the time. I got temporarily promoted at work, but it won't last (and I don't want it to anyway, they keep giving me crap for stupid things that aren't getting done when I'm barely keeping my head above the water). My department manager had to have surgery so I stepped in to fill her shoes until she comes back (or until school starts again, whichever comes first). Yeah, like I said, I feel like some of the people at work talk to me like I don't know what I'm doing, as if I haven't been in retail for the last 12 years of my life. Yeah, it IS the busiest time of year for my department (and our store too), but I can't do everything myself...I'm only one person. Anyway, enough about work...

School starts soon. I'm actually really ready for school to start this time. After pissing off the last semester, I really want to get back to the grind and get classes done this year. After everything that happened last year, I pretty much gave up last Spring semester, which was not a good decision on my part. Not only am I on academic probation, but I might lose my financial aid too. I'm not complaining though, it was my fault. For anyone that doesn't know, I've changed my major (again) to Theater Design with a costuming emphasis. I'm excited about it! Anyone that knows me knows that I love to sew, so it should be a good semester.

I can't stop thinking of dad lately. Seems like everything that I see or hear makes me think of him. And when I say everything, I mean everything. Was watching TV the other day and stopped at 'Say Yes To The Dress'. (For anyone that hasn't seen it, it's a show about a bridal shop in New York and helping brides pick out the "perfect" dress...) Yeah, I am a sucker for shows like that, but I couldn't help but think "I'll never have my dad to walk me down the aisle if I ever get married..." and "My dad will never be around to give boyfriends the 'talk'". Sigh. I think it might be time to get in to the doc again and try a different med so this doesn't affect school again. I really wish I could immerse myself in music like I usually do, but I really don't have the heart to. Besides, I lost all of my music on my external hard drive anyway. (only 13,000 songs, no biggie)

I'm planning another trip to Mt Rushmore on Labor Day with some friends...that should be fun. Hopefully it won't be too much of a strain on the budget though, I'm having a hard time with that as it is. We are planning on doing Mt Rushmore, Crazyhorse, Devil's Tower, Sturgis, the Black Hills, etc. I've done all these before (this will be my 4th time to Rushmore), but I don't mind being the tour guide, it'll be fun.

Summer this year has been pretty uneventful besides work. I miss my family (mom moved to UT, which means I won't see her hardly ever since I detest UT and will only go over there if I HAVE to). I miss my neices and nephews. The rest of my family is pretty much easier to love from a distance. I'd really like to visit with my aunts and uncles sometime, but I don't think that will happen until next summer, if at all. One of these days I'm going to travel more. I've actually considered doing a study abroad to Scotland, but that was before I changed majors. Rambling again...

Anyway, sorry it's been so long since I last blogged. People just need to kick me and tell me to blog and I will. Peace.

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

June blahness

Eh kind of birthday... (no one even showed up...I'm so special...)
Crazy work schedules... (can I have a vaca yet?)
Moving... (NEVER again...for at least a year)
Mom moving far far away. :o(
Listening to Christian artists to keep the "positive" from dying...
Spending way too much time alone with thoughts... (not a very good thing)...
Missing people something fierce...
Money issues (brought on by OTHER people against my will)
Family issues...
Depression crap again...
School anxiety...
Hot weather
Performing on July 4th seriously for the first time in like 10 years...
^^^Not looking forward to people laughing at the spectacle...^^^
Got handed more responsibility at work for the same crappy pay (and only because I'm the only one there in my area, not because they actually think I can HANDLE the job *rolls eyes*)...

Monday, May 18, 2009

Anger anger ANGER!!!!

***warning...if you have a problem with harsh language, don't read***


In case you can't tell by the title, I'm a little upset. Ok, a little is a MAJOR understatement, to say the least. Just got off the phone with oldest sis who has been having "uneffective" correspondence with dad's partner for the business that he owned. Seems this lady is trying to cut our family out of his part of the business. I won't go in to detail, but really, what gives someone the right to do that. Here later tonight when I am not so angry about it, I will be writing her a pretty nasty "nice" e-mail telling that she will have a certain number of days to change all passwords, e-mail accounts, bank record passwords, etc back to their previous, or she will be talking to our lawyer.

I am tired of playing nice. My siblings are tired of playing nice. This woman (and I use that term loosely...VERY loosely, even though she's like 50) seems to think that it's OK to effectively STEAL. It is NOT. Nor is it ok to lock us out of accounts that are both PERSONAL and business related. She basically took over ALL of dad's accounts without permission or warning...went in and changed the passwords and everything. BITCH. My poor lovely mother has no idea what to do...this whole business thing is soo not her forte. She is the creative mind of the family. So, us as siblings, are uniting as a strong front to take action against the theiving of my mother. Mom currently has no income, and this bitch trying to take her half of the business away is really pissing me off.

***end ridiculous rant***

Ok, so on to other things. Karleen's wedding was awesome! I had a blast!!! I'm soo jealous...decided that I'm never getting married, but hey, I can attend as many weddings as I can to suffice. LOL

I would post more, but I am pretty emotionally charged right now, so I will spare you all for now.

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Total Randomness

  • Moving...blah.
  • Work...even more blah.
  • Other work...might quit?
  • Vacations...(even for a few days) yay!!!  Soooo needed.
  • Friendships...on the rocks, a few better than others.
  • Medications...should start them again, but can't bring myself to.
  • Family...miss all the little ankle-biters to pieces.
  • Money...sucks.
  • School...can't stand it anymore.
  • Snow...hate it.  Need to move somewhere warmer.  Any suggestions?
  • Movies...Confessions of a Shopaholic?  Eh, it was funny, but the book was better.  Bride Wars was hilarious.  He's Just Not That In To You...very very good.  Will never trust another word uttered out of a man's mouth again.  Can't wait for Twilight to come out...yes, I'm a Twihard.  (Twilight Diehard)  I've got it pre-ordered at Hastings...free watch included.  LOLz
  • Future...bleak.
  • Mood...even worse.
  • Thoughts...everywhere.
  • Heart...aching.
  • EDEC class...interesting.  I like observing at the Head Start here in town...seriously making me think about going into education instead of CompSci.  But who knows...school is too blah for me right now to even think about.
  • Misery...needs company.

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Things to buy:




Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Chicken Yum-Yum Casserole

Chicken Yum-Yum Casserole

3-4 chicken breasts (I use frozen ones)
1 family size box chicken-flavored Rice-A-Roni (other flavor could be good too)
1 large can of Cream of Chicken soup
2 Tbls butter/margarine (for suateeing the rice)

Turn oven on to 375*.

Sautee the Rice-A-Roni on the stove in a pan just like it says on the box until golden brown.

Lightly spray a cake-sized pan with non-stick cooking spray.  Place chicken breats in bottom of pan.  In a medium-sized mixing bowl, mix cream of chicken soup, rice, and the flavor pack from the Rice-a-Roni together.  This will make kind of a gross lumpy looking mess, that's what you want.  Put this mixture over the chicken breasts in the cake pan.  Add enough water to cover the top of the chicken breasts.  Mix the water with the goopy mixture so the water will help the rice cook.  Put the pan in the oven for approximately one hour.  Check the chicken to make sure it's cooked...if it's not, leave the pan in the oven until thoroughly cooked.

Enjoy!

Sunday, January 25, 2009

LOLz 1.25.09

Saturday, January 24, 2009

My treasure...

Yay, look at the treasure that I found on Etsy!  My precious!!!  It's mine...and yes, it's real!

Thursday, January 22, 2009

LOLz 1.22.09

Friday, January 9, 2009

TotD 01.09.09

Artist:Adele
Album:19
Title:Make You Feel My Love

When the rain is blowing in your face,
and the whole world is on your case,
I could offer you a warm embrace
to make you feel my love.

When the evening shadows and the stars appear,
and there is no one there to dry your tears,
I could hold you for a million years
to make you feel my love.

I know you haven't made your mind up yet,
but I would never do you wrong.
I've known it from the moment that we met,
no doubt in my mind where you belong.

I'd go hungry; I'd go black and blue,
I'd go crawling down the avenue.
No, there's nothing that I wouldn't do
to make you feel my love.

The storms are raging on the rolling sea
and on the highway of regret.
Though winds of change are throwing wild and free,
you ain't seen nothing like me yet.

I could make you happy, make your dreams come true.
Nothing that I wouldn't do.
Go to the ends of the Earth for you,
to make you feel my love

((yes, I know that Garth Brooks originally did this song, but I love love LOVE this version sooooo much better!!!))

Sunday, January 4, 2009

Craziness

A few pictures from the lasts of December and firsts of January.



Shell and me at Vedauwoo...we figured out the timer feature on her camera.  LOLz


Another in Vedauwoo.


And another.


Shell by the "penis" rock.  LOLz


And moi.


View of the Wasatch mountains from the docks at Utah Lake.


And another.

View of Utah Valley (Provo and Orem anyway) from the hills above the valley.


And another.


Most of the family on Christmas day after presents.  LOLz


Two crazies having fun.  :o)

Sunday, August 2, 2009

"I'm only human..."

"I'm only human, save me...save me from myself.
I'm only human, I'm no superwoman..."

I know, I haven't blogged in forever on here. Sorry. (Don't think anyone really reads them much anyway...) Life lately has just been...there? I have so many things that are going on at the moment, but they're so not important to me at the moment that I just feel a little blah all the time. I got temporarily promoted at work, but it won't last (and I don't want it to anyway, they keep giving me crap for stupid things that aren't getting done when I'm barely keeping my head above the water). My department manager had to have surgery so I stepped in to fill her shoes until she comes back (or until school starts again, whichever comes first). Yeah, like I said, I feel like some of the people at work talk to me like I don't know what I'm doing, as if I haven't been in retail for the last 12 years of my life. Yeah, it IS the busiest time of year for my department (and our store too), but I can't do everything myself...I'm only one person. Anyway, enough about work...

School starts soon. I'm actually really ready for school to start this time. After pissing off the last semester, I really want to get back to the grind and get classes done this year. After everything that happened last year, I pretty much gave up last Spring semester, which was not a good decision on my part. Not only am I on academic probation, but I might lose my financial aid too. I'm not complaining though, it was my fault. For anyone that doesn't know, I've changed my major (again) to Theater Design with a costuming emphasis. I'm excited about it! Anyone that knows me knows that I love to sew, so it should be a good semester.

I can't stop thinking of dad lately. Seems like everything that I see or hear makes me think of him. And when I say everything, I mean everything. Was watching TV the other day and stopped at 'Say Yes To The Dress'. (For anyone that hasn't seen it, it's a show about a bridal shop in New York and helping brides pick out the "perfect" dress...) Yeah, I am a sucker for shows like that, but I couldn't help but think "I'll never have my dad to walk me down the aisle if I ever get married..." and "My dad will never be around to give boyfriends the 'talk'". Sigh. I think it might be time to get in to the doc again and try a different med so this doesn't affect school again. I really wish I could immerse myself in music like I usually do, but I really don't have the heart to. Besides, I lost all of my music on my external hard drive anyway. (only 13,000 songs, no biggie)

I'm planning another trip to Mt Rushmore on Labor Day with some friends...that should be fun. Hopefully it won't be too much of a strain on the budget though, I'm having a hard time with that as it is. We are planning on doing Mt Rushmore, Crazyhorse, Devil's Tower, Sturgis, the Black Hills, etc. I've done all these before (this will be my 4th time to Rushmore), but I don't mind being the tour guide, it'll be fun.

Summer this year has been pretty uneventful besides work. I miss my family (mom moved to UT, which means I won't see her hardly ever since I detest UT and will only go over there if I HAVE to). I miss my neices and nephews. The rest of my family is pretty much easier to love from a distance. I'd really like to visit with my aunts and uncles sometime, but I don't think that will happen until next summer, if at all. One of these days I'm going to travel more. I've actually considered doing a study abroad to Scotland, but that was before I changed majors. Rambling again...

Anyway, sorry it's been so long since I last blogged. People just need to kick me and tell me to blog and I will. Peace.

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

June blahness

Eh kind of birthday... (no one even showed up...I'm so special...)
Crazy work schedules... (can I have a vaca yet?)
Moving... (NEVER again...for at least a year)
Mom moving far far away. :o(
Listening to Christian artists to keep the "positive" from dying...
Spending way too much time alone with thoughts... (not a very good thing)...
Missing people something fierce...
Money issues (brought on by OTHER people against my will)
Family issues...
Depression crap again...
School anxiety...
Hot weather
Performing on July 4th seriously for the first time in like 10 years...
^^^Not looking forward to people laughing at the spectacle...^^^
Got handed more responsibility at work for the same crappy pay (and only because I'm the only one there in my area, not because they actually think I can HANDLE the job *rolls eyes*)...

Monday, May 18, 2009

Anger anger ANGER!!!!

***warning...if you have a problem with harsh language, don't read***


In case you can't tell by the title, I'm a little upset. Ok, a little is a MAJOR understatement, to say the least. Just got off the phone with oldest sis who has been having "uneffective" correspondence with dad's partner for the business that he owned. Seems this lady is trying to cut our family out of his part of the business. I won't go in to detail, but really, what gives someone the right to do that. Here later tonight when I am not so angry about it, I will be writing her a pretty nasty "nice" e-mail telling that she will have a certain number of days to change all passwords, e-mail accounts, bank record passwords, etc back to their previous, or she will be talking to our lawyer.

I am tired of playing nice. My siblings are tired of playing nice. This woman (and I use that term loosely...VERY loosely, even though she's like 50) seems to think that it's OK to effectively STEAL. It is NOT. Nor is it ok to lock us out of accounts that are both PERSONAL and business related. She basically took over ALL of dad's accounts without permission or warning...went in and changed the passwords and everything. BITCH. My poor lovely mother has no idea what to do...this whole business thing is soo not her forte. She is the creative mind of the family. So, us as siblings, are uniting as a strong front to take action against the theiving of my mother. Mom currently has no income, and this bitch trying to take her half of the business away is really pissing me off.

***end ridiculous rant***

Ok, so on to other things. Karleen's wedding was awesome! I had a blast!!! I'm soo jealous...decided that I'm never getting married, but hey, I can attend as many weddings as I can to suffice. LOL

I would post more, but I am pretty emotionally charged right now, so I will spare you all for now.

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Total Randomness

  • Moving...blah.
  • Work...even more blah.
  • Other work...might quit?
  • Vacations...(even for a few days) yay!!!  Soooo needed.
  • Friendships...on the rocks, a few better than others.
  • Medications...should start them again, but can't bring myself to.
  • Family...miss all the little ankle-biters to pieces.
  • Money...sucks.
  • School...can't stand it anymore.
  • Snow...hate it.  Need to move somewhere warmer.  Any suggestions?
  • Movies...Confessions of a Shopaholic?  Eh, it was funny, but the book was better.  Bride Wars was hilarious.  He's Just Not That In To You...very very good.  Will never trust another word uttered out of a man's mouth again.  Can't wait for Twilight to come out...yes, I'm a Twihard.  (Twilight Diehard)  I've got it pre-ordered at Hastings...free watch included.  LOLz
  • Future...bleak.
  • Mood...even worse.
  • Thoughts...everywhere.
  • Heart...aching.
  • EDEC class...interesting.  I like observing at the Head Start here in town...seriously making me think about going into education instead of CompSci.  But who knows...school is too blah for me right now to even think about.
  • Misery...needs company.

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Things to buy:




Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Chicken Yum-Yum Casserole

Chicken Yum-Yum Casserole


3-4 chicken breasts (I use frozen ones)
1 family size box chicken-flavored Rice-A-Roni (other flavor could be good too)
1 large can of Cream of Chicken soup
2 Tbls butter/margarine (for suateeing the rice)

Turn oven on to 375*.

Sautee the Rice-A-Roni on the stove in a pan just like it says on the box until golden brown.

Lightly spray a cake-sized pan with non-stick cooking spray.  Place chicken breats in bottom of pan.  In a medium-sized mixing bowl, mix cream of chicken soup, rice, and the flavor pack from the Rice-a-Roni together.  This will make kind of a gross lumpy looking mess, that's what you want.  Put this mixture over the chicken breasts in the cake pan.  Add enough water to cover the top of the chicken breasts.  Mix the water with the goopy mixture so the water will help the rice cook.  Put the pan in the oven for approximately one hour.  Check the chicken to make sure it's cooked...if it's not, leave the pan in the oven until thoroughly cooked.

Enjoy!

Sunday, January 25, 2009

LOLz 1.25.09

Saturday, January 24, 2009

My treasure...

Yay, look at the treasure that I found on Etsy!  My precious!!!  It's mine...and yes, it's real!


Thursday, January 22, 2009

LOLz 1.22.09

Friday, January 9, 2009

TotD 01.09.09

Artist:Adele
Album:19
Title:Make You Feel My Love

When the rain is blowing in your face,
and the whole world is on your case,
I could offer you a warm embrace
to make you feel my love.

When the evening shadows and the stars appear,
and there is no one there to dry your tears,
I could hold you for a million years
to make you feel my love.

I know you haven't made your mind up yet,
but I would never do you wrong.
I've known it from the moment that we met,
no doubt in my mind where you belong.

I'd go hungry; I'd go black and blue,
I'd go crawling down the avenue.
No, there's nothing that I wouldn't do
to make you feel my love.

The storms are raging on the rolling sea
and on the highway of regret.
Though winds of change are throwing wild and free,
you ain't seen nothing like me yet.

I could make you happy, make your dreams come true.
Nothing that I wouldn't do.
Go to the ends of the Earth for you,
to make you feel my love

((yes, I know that Garth Brooks originally did this song, but I love love LOVE this version sooooo much better!!!))

Sunday, January 4, 2009

Craziness

A few pictures from the lasts of December and firsts of January.




Shell and me at Vedauwoo...we figured out the timer feature on her camera.  LOLz


Another in Vedauwoo.


And another.


Shell by the "penis" rock.  LOLz


And moi.


View of the Wasatch mountains from the docks at Utah Lake.


And another.

View of Utah Valley (Provo and Orem anyway) from the hills above the valley.


And another.


Most of the family on Christmas day after presents.  LOLz


Two crazies having fun.  :o)

 

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