Sunday, August 2, 2009

"I'm only human..."

"I'm only human, save me...save me from myself.
I'm only human, I'm no superwoman..."

I know, I haven't blogged in forever on here. Sorry. (Don't think anyone really reads them much anyway...) Life lately has just been...there? I have so many things that are going on at the moment, but they're so not important to me at the moment that I just feel a little blah all the time. I got temporarily promoted at work, but it won't last (and I don't want it to anyway, they keep giving me crap for stupid things that aren't getting done when I'm barely keeping my head above the water). My department manager had to have surgery so I stepped in to fill her shoes until she comes back (or until school starts again, whichever comes first). Yeah, like I said, I feel like some of the people at work talk to me like I don't know what I'm doing, as if I haven't been in retail for the last 12 years of my life. Yeah, it IS the busiest time of year for my department (and our store too), but I can't do everything myself...I'm only one person. Anyway, enough about work...

School starts soon. I'm actually really ready for school to start this time. After pissing off the last semester, I really want to get back to the grind and get classes done this year. After everything that happened last year, I pretty much gave up last Spring semester, which was not a good decision on my part. Not only am I on academic probation, but I might lose my financial aid too. I'm not complaining though, it was my fault. For anyone that doesn't know, I've changed my major (again) to Theater Design with a costuming emphasis. I'm excited about it! Anyone that knows me knows that I love to sew, so it should be a good semester.

I can't stop thinking of dad lately. Seems like everything that I see or hear makes me think of him. And when I say everything, I mean everything. Was watching TV the other day and stopped at 'Say Yes To The Dress'. (For anyone that hasn't seen it, it's a show about a bridal shop in New York and helping brides pick out the "perfect" dress...) Yeah, I am a sucker for shows like that, but I couldn't help but think "I'll never have my dad to walk me down the aisle if I ever get married..." and "My dad will never be around to give boyfriends the 'talk'". Sigh. I think it might be time to get in to the doc again and try a different med so this doesn't affect school again. I really wish I could immerse myself in music like I usually do, but I really don't have the heart to. Besides, I lost all of my music on my external hard drive anyway. (only 13,000 songs, no biggie)

I'm planning another trip to Mt Rushmore on Labor Day with some friends...that should be fun. Hopefully it won't be too much of a strain on the budget though, I'm having a hard time with that as it is. We are planning on doing Mt Rushmore, Crazyhorse, Devil's Tower, Sturgis, the Black Hills, etc. I've done all these before (this will be my 4th time to Rushmore), but I don't mind being the tour guide, it'll be fun.

Summer this year has been pretty uneventful besides work. I miss my family (mom moved to UT, which means I won't see her hardly ever since I detest UT and will only go over there if I HAVE to). I miss my neices and nephews. The rest of my family is pretty much easier to love from a distance. I'd really like to visit with my aunts and uncles sometime, but I don't think that will happen until next summer, if at all. One of these days I'm going to travel more. I've actually considered doing a study abroad to Scotland, but that was before I changed majors. Rambling again...

Anyway, sorry it's been so long since I last blogged. People just need to kick me and tell me to blog and I will. Peace.

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Sunday, August 2, 2009

"I'm only human..."

"I'm only human, save me...save me from myself.
I'm only human, I'm no superwoman..."

I know, I haven't blogged in forever on here. Sorry. (Don't think anyone really reads them much anyway...) Life lately has just been...there? I have so many things that are going on at the moment, but they're so not important to me at the moment that I just feel a little blah all the time. I got temporarily promoted at work, but it won't last (and I don't want it to anyway, they keep giving me crap for stupid things that aren't getting done when I'm barely keeping my head above the water). My department manager had to have surgery so I stepped in to fill her shoes until she comes back (or until school starts again, whichever comes first). Yeah, like I said, I feel like some of the people at work talk to me like I don't know what I'm doing, as if I haven't been in retail for the last 12 years of my life. Yeah, it IS the busiest time of year for my department (and our store too), but I can't do everything myself...I'm only one person. Anyway, enough about work...

School starts soon. I'm actually really ready for school to start this time. After pissing off the last semester, I really want to get back to the grind and get classes done this year. After everything that happened last year, I pretty much gave up last Spring semester, which was not a good decision on my part. Not only am I on academic probation, but I might lose my financial aid too. I'm not complaining though, it was my fault. For anyone that doesn't know, I've changed my major (again) to Theater Design with a costuming emphasis. I'm excited about it! Anyone that knows me knows that I love to sew, so it should be a good semester.

I can't stop thinking of dad lately. Seems like everything that I see or hear makes me think of him. And when I say everything, I mean everything. Was watching TV the other day and stopped at 'Say Yes To The Dress'. (For anyone that hasn't seen it, it's a show about a bridal shop in New York and helping brides pick out the "perfect" dress...) Yeah, I am a sucker for shows like that, but I couldn't help but think "I'll never have my dad to walk me down the aisle if I ever get married..." and "My dad will never be around to give boyfriends the 'talk'". Sigh. I think it might be time to get in to the doc again and try a different med so this doesn't affect school again. I really wish I could immerse myself in music like I usually do, but I really don't have the heart to. Besides, I lost all of my music on my external hard drive anyway. (only 13,000 songs, no biggie)

I'm planning another trip to Mt Rushmore on Labor Day with some friends...that should be fun. Hopefully it won't be too much of a strain on the budget though, I'm having a hard time with that as it is. We are planning on doing Mt Rushmore, Crazyhorse, Devil's Tower, Sturgis, the Black Hills, etc. I've done all these before (this will be my 4th time to Rushmore), but I don't mind being the tour guide, it'll be fun.

Summer this year has been pretty uneventful besides work. I miss my family (mom moved to UT, which means I won't see her hardly ever since I detest UT and will only go over there if I HAVE to). I miss my neices and nephews. The rest of my family is pretty much easier to love from a distance. I'd really like to visit with my aunts and uncles sometime, but I don't think that will happen until next summer, if at all. One of these days I'm going to travel more. I've actually considered doing a study abroad to Scotland, but that was before I changed majors. Rambling again...

Anyway, sorry it's been so long since I last blogged. People just need to kick me and tell me to blog and I will. Peace.

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